With his sock half on, Nathaniel stares at his foot.
"I think so, yes," Nathaniel finally murmurs. "If I had known, if you'd explained the reasons... I know I wouldn't have objected because I wouldn't have wanted Musette to hurt you."
Only now does he look at Asher again.
"But I didn't know. I didn't know, and my friends -- the people who have been covering for us for months now -- saw that I didn't know. It's an awful feeling. I don't like feeling like the punchline of some joke I didn't even know was being made." Now the tears return, no matter how much he fights them. "I told you at the beginning that all you needed to do was tell me where I belonged, but you didn't, you just told me you loved me. Do I come before them? Do they come before me?"
And now that youth Asher spoke of comes to the forefront, because Nathaniel is terribly stunted emotionally. He bows his head, sniffling.
"Just tell me where I belong, Asher, that's all I've asked of you, all I still ask of you. Where do I belong?"
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Date: 2009-08-27 03:45 pm (UTC)"I think so, yes," Nathaniel finally murmurs. "If I had known, if you'd explained the reasons... I know I wouldn't have objected because I wouldn't have wanted Musette to hurt you."
Only now does he look at Asher again.
"But I didn't know. I didn't know, and my friends -- the people who have been covering for us for months now -- saw that I didn't know. It's an awful feeling. I don't like feeling like the punchline of some joke I didn't even know was being made." Now the tears return, no matter how much he fights them. "I told you at the beginning that all you needed to do was tell me where I belonged, but you didn't, you just told me you loved me. Do I come before them? Do they come before me?"
And now that youth Asher spoke of comes to the forefront, because Nathaniel is terribly stunted emotionally. He bows his head, sniffling.
"Just tell me where I belong, Asher, that's all I've asked of you, all I still ask of you. Where do I belong?"