Nathaniel sighs and sits up, crossing his legs and folding his hands in his lap.
"I think the temperature in here has just dropped ten degrees." He stares down at his hands, his brow furrowed. "You're in love with Jean-Claude. I know you have some sort of feelings for Anita too. While I worry that once you truly have them both, you won't need me, I tell myself that's a silly thing to worry about and reassure myself that you're also in love with me. Damian kisses me, or I jerk off and he sees it, and you..."
Nathaniel sighs.
"You want to know the difference between us?" he asks, looking up to stare at Asher now. "You're in love with Jean-Claude and I accept it because there's really no point in arguing. I don't want to make you unhappy because I'm afraid. I'm not in love with Damian, and you're jealous. I'm in love with you. If anyone should be jealous, it's Damian. I love him, yeah, like I do Jason, and I want to have sex with him, but it's so different. It's like... a flashlight compared to the fucking sun."
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"I think the temperature in here has just dropped ten degrees." He stares down at his hands, his brow furrowed. "You're in love with Jean-Claude. I know you have some sort of feelings for Anita too. While I worry that once you truly have them both, you won't need me, I tell myself that's a silly thing to worry about and reassure myself that you're also in love with me. Damian kisses me, or I jerk off and he sees it, and you..."
Nathaniel sighs.
"You want to know the difference between us?" he asks, looking up to stare at Asher now. "You're in love with Jean-Claude and I accept it because there's really no point in arguing. I don't want to make you unhappy because I'm afraid. I'm not in love with Damian, and you're jealous. I'm in love with you. If anyone should be jealous, it's Damian. I love him, yeah, like I do Jason, and I want to have sex with him, but it's so different. It's like... a flashlight compared to the fucking sun."