As wonderful as it feels to be inside Asher, Nathaniel sits up and back, withdrawing completely. He remains kneeling between Asher's thighs, staring at his lover in utter disbelief.
"The first time you let me take you, and you use it as punishment." Nathaniel's voice, just like Asher's, is carefully devoid of emotion. "You'd use me all over again just to suit your purpose."
Asher had explained why he'd done as he'd done to his younger self, and Nathaniel had understood, in a way. It had been the desire to show him how sex could be more than a job, that it could be enjoyable, that pleasure worked both ways. Yes, he'd paid for it for the chance to show Nathaniel that, but Nathaniel admits that short of using his vampire tricks, there'd been no other option for Asher to get Nathaniel into bed with him that night. No apology had been asked for, and none had been given.
But this... wasn't about pleasure, and this was the first time since becoming Asher's lover that Nathaniel felt dirty.
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Date: 2009-08-06 02:32 pm (UTC)"The first time you let me take you, and you use it as punishment." Nathaniel's voice, just like Asher's, is carefully devoid of emotion. "You'd use me all over again just to suit your purpose."
Asher had explained why he'd done as he'd done to his younger self, and Nathaniel had understood, in a way. It had been the desire to show him how sex could be more than a job, that it could be enjoyable, that pleasure worked both ways. Yes, he'd paid for it for the chance to show Nathaniel that, but Nathaniel admits that short of using his vampire tricks, there'd been no other option for Asher to get Nathaniel into bed with him that night. No apology had been asked for, and none had been given.
But this... wasn't about pleasure, and this was the first time since becoming Asher's lover that Nathaniel felt dirty.